nothing is easy, but..

sedang tunggu turn nak exam skill lab. lagi kira-kira 10 minit mereka harus masuk ke ruangan skill lab sebelum lonceng untuk 3 minit terakhir berbunyi. kelihatan dia duduk sambil mulutnya terkumat-kamit perlahan; masih menghafal.  seorang teman tumpang duduk di sebelahnya. lengan teman ditarik, 

"nervous la.."

"nervous jugak.. emm, jom baca doa ni. best." senyum meyakinkan.

"nak nak, ajarkan.." terlihat rekahan senyum dalam gelisah.

"Allahumma la sahla illa ma ja’altahu sahla, wa ‘anta taj-alul hazna idha shi’ta sahla.." satu per satu dituturkan perlahan.

dia mengikut lafaz doa tersebut.

"maksudnya kan, ya Allah.. tiada yang mudah melainkan apa yang Engkau mudahkan. Engkau yang  menjadikan kesedihan itu lenyap bila Engkau mudahkan. best kan maksud dia." 

"owh..doa ni. sebelum ni selalu baca yang BM punya je. yang makna dia tu."

"xpe.. boleh je. Allah tahu apa yang kita nak kan." 

mereka tersenyum tenang. 

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it was narrated from Anas (may Allah be pleased with him) that the Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: 

اللهُمَّ لا سَهْلَ إلا مَا جَعَلتَهُ سَهْلا وَ أنتَ تَجْعَلُ الحزْنَ إذا شِئْتَ سَهْلا 

“O Allah , nothing is easy but that which You make easy and You can make hardship easy if You will.”

[narrated by Ibn Hibbaan, 3/255; classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in al-Silsilah al-Saheehah, 2886]

a very beautiful supplication for those whose affairs become difficult. not only for exam, it is applicable in any situation of difficulties in our lives. may Allah make our lives easy and take away all the calamities. :)

soul_diagnosis: "Never lose hope. Stay close to Allah and when you mess up, go back to Him. Never, ever stop going back to Him. Repent often. Cry to Allah. And hold on tight—with your life—to His remembrance and to prayer. If you do this, you may get wet, but insha Allah never drown in this ocean of dunya."-yasmin mogahed. :') 

#1 soul-amelioration: go back to Him, stay close.

cukuplah. tutup muka. malu sendiri.

are you a muslim ?


do you know about this?
do you ever care about it?


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its about Syria.
our Syria.  


and now;


S Y R I A
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b l e e d i n g
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kengerian. kerakusan. kekejaman.
hari ke hari. saat ke saat. berulang-ulang. 
tanpa belas. tanpa kasihan.
 pembunuhan demi pembunuhan. 
disiat, direntap, disembelih, dilanyak, dibantai
nyawa bagai tiada harga, tiada nilai.
 merah pekat berdarah, berserakan serata-rata.
sakit sekali. perit. jiwa gempita. meronta-ronta.


jauh mereka di sana, kita di sini. 
 tapi mereka muslim, kita muslim.
sedar tidak?
ya, kita terikat dengan tali aqidah.
dengan lafaz lailahaillah muhammadurrasullah,
menjadikan kita satu.
nyawa mereka, nyawa kita.
namun mengapa kita masih boleh 
pejamkan mata, pekakan telinga, bisukan mulut?


jom buat sesuatu.
sesuatu; yang kita termampu.
tiada yang remeh jika keranaNya.
tadah tangan, doakan mereka, dengan sungguh.
ya, bersungguh-sungguh. mohon dengan sangat.
jangan kata itu pun masih kita terlupa, tak sempat dan tak mampu.
cukuplah. tutup muka. malu sendiri.

"Ringankan tangan, doamu tidak dikenakan bayaran."
-tmf

si kecil ini; dia menyaksikan pembunuhan ahli keluarganya di depan mata sendiri. dia terselamat dengan berpura-pura mati. sambil menceritakan semua yang terjadi, dia masih boleh tenang begini. 
kuatnya dia.  moga Allah sentiasa kuatkan kamu, pejuang kecil.

 terus apa lagi yang boleh kita lakukan?

[1] ambil tahu! ambil tahu. ambil tahu. ambil tahu. keep update tentang berita di Syria. 


https://www.facebook.com/pages/Rakyat-Malaysia-Bersama-Revolusi-Syria
https://www.facebook.com/syria.care
https://www.facebook.com/GabunganSelamatkanSyria


dan pelbagai sumber lain lagi.


[2] sumbangan kewangan. boleh disalurkan ke :

 no akaun 26-2120-0000-4747

RHB Bank atas nama 'Muslim Care'

sumbangan boleh dimaklumkan melalui email; souriacare@gmail.com

[3] kuatkan lagi basic aqidah kita. isu Syria adalah isu aqidah. mengapa Syiah tegar membunuh Sunni? apakah itu Syiah? adakah Syiah adalah satu mazhab atau agama? jom ambil tahu!

part 1





part 2




[4] diri kita ini, baikilah. kita tak mampu nak ubah dunia, kita tak dapat nak ubah orang lain, tapi kita boleh ubah diri sendiri. latih diri, didik diri. satu per satu. perlahan-lahan. baby steps sekalipun, takpe. bertaktih, tergolek, tersungkur, takpe. merangkak la semula untuk bangun. penat memang penat.  ya, tahu susah. siapa tak letih, berlawan dengan degilnya diri sendiri. tapi pada yang lelah itu, besar nilaian. mungkin tampak kecil di mata manusia, tapi tidak sesekali dalam hitunganNya. percayalah. 
"Jadilah insan yang menguatkan ummah."-quoted


[5] sebarkan pada dunia tentang isu ini! lebih-lebih lagi pada muslim seaqidah yang masih buat tak tahu, tak nak ambil tahu atau mungkin saja memang mereka benar-benar tak tahu. mungkin. 


[6] sekali lagi; doa. doa. doa. doakan mereka. never underestimate a du'a. it is powerful. seriously.


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buat
jiwa-jiwa kecil, jiwa-jiwa mulus, jiwa-jiwa pejuang;
untukmu, doa-doa kami.









soul_diagnosis: apa nak jawab kat akhirat nanti? tertunduk sepi... macam mana ni, macam mana ni, banyak tak tahu lagi. tertampar sendiri. sudahlah, jangan nak tertapi-tapi. teruskan mencari dan mengetahui. usaha, usaha, usaha lagi, jangan berhenti! supaya kamu ada jawapan buat kemudian hari.

soul-amelioration

a·me·lio·ra·tion [əˌmiːljəˈreɪʃən]

n

1. an improvement, betterment
2. the act or an instance of improvement or the state of being ameliorated
3. 1650s, from French amélioration, from Old French ameillorer (12c.),
   from a “to” + meillior (Modern French meìlleur) ”to better,”
   from Late Latin meliorare “improve,”
   from Latin melior ”better,” perhaps originally ”stronger,”
   and related to Greek mala ”very, very much.”

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perhaps a little futile to explain, but it has to do with the essence of my being. the things i see, the air i breathe, the thoughts that hit me, the peace i seek, the words of grace my veins speak. 

somewhere along the line, seeking amelioration. 

i’m human, a creation of the Creator, i’m perfectly formed with all my imperfections. imperfections that only make me who i am, yet set me on a mission for amelioration. that beautiful challenge, we’re blessed with abilities to accept. right? therein, for all my never ending shortcomings, i'm really sorry.. truly. 

just hopefully, you and i are mind to realize that everyone we meet is fighting a hard battle. yup, everyone has their own battle in life, perhaps; acute disease, crucial self-reconstruction, chronic problems and etc. thus, lets end our assumption and curiosity by asking in a proper way, at a right time, with a proper tone, based on the personality of the person. 


after all, the key is to open up the heart to accept and reflect, not to judge. okay? :) 

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so, here's to amelioration. 

Allahu musta'an. 

where to get the strength? be with Him; in a secret meeting at 1/3 of night. lets try hard.

soul_diagnosis: dusturul hayah; the principle of life. everyone has it, in their own way. respect. appreciate. 

serenity

"

be a blazing fire of truth
be a soothing balm of peace
with the light of your sincerity
breaks the clouds of tyranny
let your faith be like a blessed tree
give your shade to all who seek
may your roots run true and deep


shine your mercy like the sun
and be gracious as the earth
let your kindness come like rain 
that cares not whom it falls upon
and let ocean deep your wisdom be
your heart and lanterns spreading peace
give yourself in love of Him


and stand before Allah like nothing else exists
and worship Him like you are seen
be with all creation and all your deeds and words
as though you have no self to please


be humble as the lonely earth
that all creatures walk up on
be the slave of the Most Merciful
let your kindness flow like rivers
quench the thirst of all who come
and let mountain strong your spirit be
let your heart melt out love for Him
take the road that leads to Him


and in your deepest needs
and in your deepest grieve
call on Him in humility
place your trust in the One
to whom creation turns
you'll find redemption and find peace


"

as-saff (61): 1-14. a deep reflection. hold on.

                                








soul_diagnosis: as the whispering breeze, spead solace to the world; let your heart and soul be mirror clear. let the tranquility  seeps in. serenity in the air.

hesitate no more.

"when I get older, I will be stronger."

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"Don't turn your head. Keep looking at the bandaged wound. That's where the light enters you. And don't believe for a moment that you're healing yourself. "
-Rumi


reminiscing. almost 4 years ago. nope. to be exact; its 7 years back.


. take a deep breath .




hesitate no more.
 lets start over again.
thousand times you run away, still, He always be there.


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soul_diagnosis: (i) in life; you 'talk' too much, you 'silent' too much, so lets put that 'too much' to an end. put a space. put a gap. put a distance, put an okay; where a learning mission goes on, a repairing programme in loading. just like the lincomycin, diclofenac potassium and mefenamic acid; the combination just perfect in time. let it be. see, just Him, Allah.. The All-Hearing, All-Seeing, All-Knowing. (ii) shh.. dont say a word. listen, listen. can you hear that? can you hear those little steps? the tiny dot down there? no? ..that's why, you know nothing. ignorance per se is a jail. (again, dont get confused. all the  soul_diagnosis part in all posts are my monologues within myself, to myseif. but if you see me in you, you in me. we can reflect on the same mirror, a little bit longer..to ponder upon.)

מענטשלעך

"Langkah-langkah perjalanan ini ada sisanya
Setiap langkah ada maknanya
Makna tersembunyi disebalik langkah itu
Mengkabarkan langkah seterusnya

Langkah yang bergitu lemah
Diatur tanpa arah
Apabila langkah terpesong
Maka gelaplah hidup ini


Sedar atau tidak, sangaja atau tidak
Mungkin beribu dosa telah terjadi dalam aturan langkah
Mungkin ada jiwa-jiwa yang telah disakiti
Jiwa-jiwa tidak bersalah

Aturkan langkah ini sebaik mungkin
Agar tidak terbabas dari landasan
Yang akan membawa kehancuran
Kelak akan ada sinar benderang"


-mamr






soul_diagnosis: נעבעכדיק. איך בין מענטשלעך צו.

yup, we are a slow walker. but its okay dear :')

"You stop living when you stop growing. You stop growing when your today was the same as yesterday. Lets live." 

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"these steps we take,

may seem small,

may seem slow,

may seem pulse-less.

to the eyes of those who are seeing,

but never to the 'eyes' of the All-seeing."

Dari Anas ra, dari Nabi Muhammad saw, beliau menceritakan yang difirmankan oleh Tuhan yang Maha Mulia lagi Maha Agung, 

"Apabila seseorang mendekatkan diri kepada-Ku sejengkal maka Aku akan mendekatnya sehasta. Apabila dia mendekatkan diri kepada-Ku sehasta maka Aku mendekatnya sedepa, dan apabila dia datang kepada-Ku dengan berjalan maka Aku datang kepadanya dengan berlari. " [HR Bukhari] 


huuhuuu. tak leh sweet lagi ke. :')))) *berbunga-bunga oh hati*

yup, we are a slow walker.. 
but no matter how slow it will be, its okay..
as long as we keep walking. 
again and again. 
walk and walk, with all the ups and downs. 
just dont stop, keep walking. 

soul_diagnosis: dear curhatmatesss secara berjemaah :p *makin ramai dah company curhat-mencurhat* hee dengar ni, dengar ni..saya nak bisik pelan-pelan. saya takkan tinggalkan kamu. betul.. :'))) insyaAllah. eh tak, mungkin je tertinggalkan kamu sebab tak perasan, tersilap, tersalah, tapi saya tinggalkan kamu untuk Dia, dengan Dia. dats will be much better. :')) untuk ini, untuk itu..maaf. *skype version* senyum sendiri. sori..kadang2 terlepas pandang, kadang2 tak perasan, kadang2 fikir thru perspektif berbeza..just nak kamu tahu, takda soal tinggal2kan, takda soal nak baik sendiri..seriously nak pegang tangan sama sama, kuat kuat, tempuh sama sama itu ini, untuk yehaa yehaa tunggang kuda laju laju penuh kencang menuju Dia! ewahh cool abes niiii. haha. okeh! jom jom! lumbaaaa! kejar redha Dia, kejar ampunan Dia. :'D biarkan mereka nak kata kita obses. ya memang sedang obses; obses akhirat. its okay, we are trying to make them understand for this obsession, step by step. even penat kita hulur tangan, tiada yang menyambut..but its okay..one day, they will. yup, they will. i believe. 

lihat bulan, lihat bintang, lihat matahari, lihat langit luas membiru..ya, impian aku setinggi itu, cuma tika ini, tersadai di dasar laut paling dalam, but as long as you dream with me..its okay, we workout together. dream with me, tomorrow's coming, and even if it doesn't come, we will bring it ourselves. insyaAllah. with His will. :')

p/s: this post overload with "its okay" haha. i realise that. but its okay. *again* ;p you know why? because human need 

H O P E

with hope, they keep moving and living.

puzzle

manusia. 

hadir untuk menguji dan diuji.

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"Heres what I've learned: The creation is like a knife. If you put it in your heart, it cuts. The deeper you put it, the deeper, and more it cuts. You must hold it in your hand. But even in your hand, you have to hold it in the right way. If you hold it from the sharp end, it will cut your hand. And the harder, and longer you hold on, when holding it wrong, the more and deeper it will cut your hand. The solution is to let go. Then hold it again, but this time from the handle." 

kita toleh ke  belakang. untuk itu dan ini. banyak perkara yang kita tak faham kenapa perlu terjadi? tunduk dan diam..tunduk dan diam. kosong.. tunduk lagi. diam lagi.. ya, tentu Allah ada reason. mungkin esok, lusa kita akan faham dan tersenyum, "oo patut la dulu jadi macam tu, macam ni.." mungkin juga, kata-kata ini akan terucap setahun, dua tahun akan datang. owh tidak. mungkin saja lima, enam, tujuh atau sepuluh tahun akan datang sekalipun. ya, suatu hari nanti; hikmahnya akan kita sedar. 

"There are pieces of your life, moments, events, decisions, and you saw no  significance in them when they happen. You may even despair. Its only when time goes by and you look back and suddenly you can see your whole life like a perfectly designed puzzle. Dont be afraid of the puzzle piece youre in now. It'll fit perfectly...just like the rest. How could it not? The Designer is perfect."

soul_diagnosis: for now you can't see it clearly because your puzzle is not complete yet. just wait and see dear. trust Him. utter it slowly, deep inside..alhamdulillah ya Allah, for every single thing. :')